today is not one of my best days. well, to be honest its probably not been one of my best months. nothing specific has happened to make it particularly bad, i just find myself in a funk that i cant seem to get out of. i find myself dwelling too much on what im not happy with and feeling sorry for myself. i hate this. what i think i hate the most about my little episodes of unhapiness is that sometimes i dont WANT to pull myself out of it. well, i guess i want to but i just dont know how and its easier not to. and so there i am. in a funk having a hard time and not willing to or knowing how to get myself on a different path. i hate feeling this way. i hate feeling sorry for myself and just want to be susie sunshine and be happy with everything life has to offer all the time. i find myself reading my favorite blog (the nienie dialogue) and i feel very ungrateful and ridiculous that i cant just be happy with my life and what i have been blessed with when there are others who suffer and struggle with trials so much more than my own. so thats my day, or days i guess, in a funk and mad at myself that i am! maybe im just feeling particularly bad for myself because my house is a DISASTER and i have NO motivation to do anything about it! hahaha! so i guess i better stop wasting time on the computer and go do something about it. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!!