Monday, October 19, 2009

ever had one of those days?

today is not one of my best days. well, to be honest its probably not been one of my best months. nothing specific has happened to make it particularly bad, i just find myself in a funk that i cant seem to get out of. i find myself dwelling too much on what im not happy with and feeling sorry for myself. i hate this. what i think i hate the most about my little episodes of unhapiness is that sometimes i dont WANT to pull myself out of it. well, i guess i want to but i just dont know how and its easier not to. and so there i am. in a funk having a hard time and not willing to or knowing how to get myself on a different path. i hate feeling this way. i hate feeling sorry for myself and just want to be susie sunshine and be happy with everything life has to offer all the time. i find myself reading my favorite blog (the nienie dialogue) and i feel very ungrateful and ridiculous that i cant just be happy with my life and what i have been blessed with when there are others who suffer and struggle with trials so much more than my own. so thats my day, or days i guess, in a funk and mad at myself that i am! maybe im just feeling particularly bad for myself because my house is a DISASTER and i have NO motivation to do anything about it! hahaha! so i guess i better stop wasting time on the computer and go do something about it. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!!

4 comments:

Dan, Justyn, and Noah said...

I am sorry you are having a bad day but it was nice hanging out with you this morning, we'll have to do that more often to get you out of this FUNK.

victim of MoMnesia said...

I have funky days all the time too...

I read your fave blog & man, I haven't read anything so sad before in my life! That stephanie woman is a great example!

The McNeil Family said...

You sound like me right now...I have been very unhappy and upset with what I have been dealing with. I fogot that I have wonderful blessings in my life too. I know it is hard. I wish there was something I could tell u that would work to get u out of this funk.. Girl I am so grateful that I know u, u are so sweet. Thanks for posting now I know I am not the only person who has these funks

Michelle said...

I think its totally normal to have those days/months. Don't be too hard on yourself. I think any mom would be lying if they said they didn't feel the same way at times. I've definitely gone through my funks, too.

I checked out that blog you were talking about & I couldn't believe it. So inspiring. You're right. It seriously makes you want to count your blessings.

Love you Erin! Thanks for the post! You're awesome.